Sporadically when I talk to people about their families I get really sad.
It sounds like other people has much better humans in their lives after that I did, many of my friends talked about enjoying the time that they spend with their families, going to their parents for advice when they have incredible stresses, & finding support whenever they need a helping hand, and personally, I don’t know what any of that is like.
My family is a goddamn mess. Whenever I try to involve them in my issues, somehow they only make things much worse. It’s like they can’t resist poking & prodding at every little thing, even if they are actively ruining my life. All of that being said, I guess I should not be incredibly surprised that they also have managed to actively ruin my central cooling system… Every time they come to visit me, they freak out about how sizzling it is outside. I live in the south. It is sizzling here. It is humid here… You would suppose that they would understand the inherent air quality, & find something else to focus on while in the visit. Instead, they obsess over the outdoor temperature & try to rectify it with controlling the indoor temperature. They are endlessly poking & prodding at my temperature control, changing the indoor air temperature up & down based on their every whim. Every time I leave, I have an extravagant air conditioning system repair to make. I regularly have to call out my ventilation specialist as they are pulling out of the driveway. One afternoon, I am going to transport & forget to tell them where my new air conditioning system component & I are residing.